I am always waiting for something. And honestly it's hard. Especially where we are right now in life. I feel like we are at a stand still. I know change is coming, just not now. (LOTS of change) I think I've said before that I am not a big fan of change, but right now I am in need of change. Weird huh?
Matt graduates next month. We are currently searching for a job that will support our family and give us what we need. Not sure what that will bring. There's this looming chance that we may have to move out of state. Away from everything we've become comfortable with. Not sure really how I feel about a change that big.
It is taking me a few days to write this post. Which I am so happy I did not just post my whiningly pleas the other day. I have had time to think and pray. And as always answers do come. I am not saying that I am miraculously cured of my woe to me state that I am in right now. But I have found some great words of wisdom. I stumbled across this article on lds.org called "Why do we have trials?" Not that I am suffering "trials" right now. I am just being impatient and finding it hard to wait. But in it there were a few good quotes.
Elder Hales said in his October 2011 general conference talk;
“Tests and trials are given to all of us. These mortal challenges allow us and our Heavenly Father to see whether we will exercise our agency to follow His Son. He already knows, and we have the opportunity to learn, that no matter how difficult our circumstances, ‘all these things shall [be for our] experience, and … [our] good’ (D&C 122:7).
He also spoke of what it means to wait upon the Lord, noting that in the scriptures, the word wait means to hope, anticipate, and trust. (Isn't that what I am doing right now. "Waiting on the Lord?" When he puts it that way. I do feel like a whiner.)
“To hope and trust in the Lord requires faith, patience, humility, meekness, long-suffering, keeping the commandments, and enduring to the end,” Elder Hales said. I'm pretty sure that this article is an answer that I have been looking for. May not be the one I was hoping for. Face it. Wouldn't it be that much easier for him to just say "hey Melissa don't worry, this is going to happen and that this is going to happen, you're going to do that and that." Yes so much easier. But do we learn from that? Unfortunately NO. Which leads me to my next, oh yeah I remember moment.
Continue in Patience
President Dieter F. Uchtdorf than talks of the blessings of patience and trusting in the Lord’s timing.
“The children of Israel waited 40 years in the wilderness before they could enter the promised land. Jacob waited 7 long years for Rachel. The Jews waited 70 years in Babylon before they could return to rebuild the temple. The Nephites waited for a sign of Christ’s birth, even knowing that if the sign did not come, they would perish. Joseph Smiths trials in Liberty Jail caused even the prophet of God to wonder, ‘How long?’
“In each case, Heavenly Father had a purpose in requiring that His children wait.” (There's that word again WAIT...)
“Every one of us is called to wait in our own way,” President Uchtdorf continued. “We wait for answers to prayers. We wait for things which at the time may appear so right and so good to us that we can’t possibly imagine why Heavenly Father would delay the answer.”
So I guess what I have learned and my next step is to take this pitty party and move on. I am not the only person in the world that has ever had to wait. I will survive. Life does get better. If I allow it I will be better and stronger as I get through this stage in life.
I know that Heavenly Father does love me. He knows what's going on. I just so often lose sight of my faith.
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