Write it down so I don't forget.

Thanks to my blog I can have a excuse to get stuff down so I don't forget. For some reason it's easier to blog than it is to write in an actual journal.

The kids were all hanging out watching Blue's Clue's yesterday waiting for lunch to cook. I don't usually watch their shows, but I hear them over and over. I find it hilarious that the T.V. encourages the children to talk back to it. But that's another subject.

Steve was getting the kids ready for the adventure of the day and he says "are you ready to go find out what book Blue wants to read today?" As he's making the sign for book. Mattix jumps up and starts getting so excited. He yells "Book of Mormon Stories." And starts to sing the song. That is one of his favorite Primary songs. And Steve made the first action to the first word in the song. I'm glad Mattix know's what book is the most important.

Hanging in There

Somedays this is exactly how I feel....

Be Strong! I can do this! I have already made it this far.

I am giving myself a pep talk today.

I found this wonderful quote I thought I would share.

by : Dieter F. Uchtdorf
"We don't always know the details of our future. We do not know what lies ahead. We live in a time of uncertainty. We are surrounded by challenges on all sides. Occasionally discouragement may sneak into our day; frustration may invite itself into our thinking; doubt might enter about the value of our work. In these dark moments Satan whispers in our ears that we will never be able to succeed, that the price isn't worth the effort, and that our small part will never make a difference. He, the father of all lies, will try to prevent us from seeing the end from the beginning."
"See the End from the Beginning," Ensign, May 2006, 43

Only 4 1/2 more days until the election. Cross our fingers and pray that Matt makes it. We have prayed and we feel like this is something that is going to benefit our family and bless us. We are trying to have faith that if this is what Heavenly Father feels is best for our family it will happen.

24 more days until we are scheduled for my C-section and we recieve our new addition to our famliy. My body is feeling very worn out. I honestly feel as though Mr. Manning is not going to wait until the 22nd. But we'll see what happens. Who ever came up with the idea that women need to experience Braxton hicks is crazy. Must of been a man. I have entered the stage of "the waddle" and I feel as though I have the weight of a watermelon on my important parts. I can do this. He at least needs to wait until after the election. I have been strong this long and my goal with this pregnancy was to not be a whiner. I know I have had my moments but I think I am doing pretty ok.

Major Changes Coming My Way

I've been experiencing alot of anxiety lately. Maybe because I have so much going on and I feel like I am so tired I am never going to get it all done in time.
My biggest anxiety is going from 2 kids to 3 kids. When I was in the hospital right after I had Mattix (my second baby) I had a nervous breakdown. I was terrified of taking home another child. Can you believe that? How embarassing for me to admit that. I cried for almost 3 hours straight in the middle of the night. The poor nurse assigned to me that night was so great. She sat with me for a couple of hours talking to me and reassuring me that I will be fine.
It didn't hit me until that night, the night before I was planning on going home to start our new life with this new child. But now I am starting the anxiety attack early. I am realizing my body only came equipped with two arms, and so much energy. Oh and our bed is just not big enough for the 5 of us. (We have visitors in the middle of the night.) Our vehicles were perfect for 2 kids now we have to banish one to the very back of the van and get real good at chucking chicken nuggets and fries to the back. What am I going to do when Matt's working and the baby is screaming while I am trying to get the other two to bed? I stay awake at night thinking of a plan.
I have heard of mom's being afraid of "not having enough love to go around." That is not what I am worried about. I am just worried about being a good mom when I am beginning to stretch thinner.
I know I am just being paranoid and it's probably my emotions talking right now. I know I will be ok and eventually I will slip into routine and Baby Manning will be like one of us and it will be like he was here all along. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you blog.

Funny Joke: Which Bees make milk?..? BooBees

Our recent ultrasound. 33weeks and 5days.

Oct. 12,2009

Who knew that time would fly so dang fast. I went in yesterday for an ultrasound and checkup. Found out that this little guy is still measuring bigger than his gestational age. (I have never had a baby ahead, mine are always behind) It's exciting to think that maybe my body has finally figured out this baby making thing. It's so neat to see what's growing and moving inside of me. I love ultrasounds. It's like putting a face with a name.

Dr. Barney had us set an official date. Which will be Nov. 22, at 10:30 in the morning. It's kind of weird to be able to schedule the date of your baby's birth but with my personality it helps to be able to plan ahead. Now we just need to figure out what were doing with the boys and make some plans.

We have so much going on right now. With the election a few weeks away and all we have to do to prepare for that. I am afraid we are going to blink and Boo we have a baby. (Just pray that election night with all the stress and anxiety we don't have a baby that night.)

Matt has been so supportive and so good about letting me have some time to myself. Maybe because I am so onry or maybe because my birthday is coming. I don't know. It's so nice to be able to relax and have some time before the baby comes and I am connected at the boob for the next year or so. I am so greatful for the Relief Society's timing of Sisterhood month. It couldn't of come at a better time. I have been able to enjoy the temple and a Lady's spa retreat night all in the last couple of weeks. I do have to say to all the wonderful women that were so willing to serve the sisters up there and rub my feet, brush my hair, paint my nails and just be my friend. I needed it and I totally appreiate every minute of it.

I can't wait to meet this little guy and hold him in my arms. We are ready for a new famliy member. We may not phyically be ready but my heart is ready. And we are truely blessed to have such wonderful children.